Ignorance is Bliss

Mm.. Winter is full of sexy sunsets too. Artist: algenpfleger

"Chopin Nocturne Op. 9 No. 3 in B Major (Arthur Rubinstein)"
(You should read Daphne's posts so my references etc. actually make some sense. *But they don't really do even if you read them*)
Sometimes in your life, you read something so compelling it makes you want to do something. Like crying or writing a response. I guess this is a the latter. Usually we do this because we disagree and have some enraged complaint. In my case then, YES 100% I DISAGREE. Well no... of course not. No one should be that un-supporting to a friend unless their concept is complete utter shit. Haha (Daphne you did nothing wrong.) Actually, I've heard Daphne speak of death like this so often that to the point where when she gets sad and thinks of the horrible possibility of complete unconscious numbness and starts crying, I can just stare and laugh at the idea. Being sad over the idea of nothing. Sure many people can say that death is something that they are afraid of because of several things: What will happen to my money? What about my presence on this earth? I don't want to be forgotten. It must hurt before death, hurting sucks. All my efforts will have gone to waste. My loved ones will be sad.
But like she said, the meaning of understanding life is to understand death. And even though Death is something that you can understand to the extent of life, it is nothing we will never fully be able to empathize with. Dead men don't tell tales. Certainly, that is true and exactly why Death is something so interesting. Death is what makes life interesting. The very thing that ends us brings us life. Strange, ain't it? Think about the phrase "Live like it's your last day". Pretty damn interesting. The thought that "it" will end brings some to do crazy random shit, but also compels others to achieve as much as possible. Unless you decide that there's no point in trying and just giving up (pretty reasonable idea for suicide). *ca-COUGH* Back to the topic that I actually don't have, I have to agree that the only thing that I have an extreme fear for would be the unknown. No amount of research or study can prepare you for the unknown. Guess that's why we can ask those with more experience to tell us what to do. 
You don't have to understand everything because it'd take the fun out of experiencing life itself. 
God will never truly be pleased and we won't either. You don't have only one life to live, who the fuck made that ridiculous CONJECTURE?! 1. Who are you to say there is only one life to live? 2. Stop saying that, just stop. Though I too have no basis for saying that it is incorrect. Hm.. Think about all the doors closed with the thought of "That it's not possible?!" It's good to stay open minded. Your brain needs oxygen to live too you know?
One day you'll wake up and realize that you haven't done anything else and that you have to make sure that your mark is on the planet. And one day you'll also wake up and realize that you've done well, lived well, perhaps not made your mark, but have done what you needed to do. Or maybe you'll just stay oblivious with the fact that nothing will start or end and realize that you pressed the snooze button one too many times and are late for work/school/whatever the hell you do.
Death is the lingering scent on the chair of the person you may meet, but will never remember the name of. He is the person you should stop assuming about because you will never understand him anyways. And he is perfectly content with the thought of being the ambiguous being he is.
And that is my conclusion. Have a nice day. Cyu.

Conflicts, War Tactics, and Losing

Does it feel like 2012 yet? Artist: Aoi

Writing this post makes me feel like I've forfeited my match. I guess if I were in a protagonist in a story, the conflict right now would be "CHRISTA VS SCHOOL". I guess? In a way, this will be my conclusion to December's POST MADNESS (OMG 4 POSTS IN ONE MONTH!? INCONCEIVABLE!!). This is that phase where you know that it's the end, but you don't want to admit so. Like when you know you're going to lose your argument but don't want to admit it. Admitting you're wrong is an important part of life though, DON'T FORGET THAT. In the end, I will go back to my everyday school life and the "school" tag will show up again. Agh, not that one again :c.
At the end of everything, it is our duty to kind of look back and say that we did a bad job. In my case, I should be reflecting on the fact that all I did was pick up lots of anime shows and read viking manga........... Oh no, looks like I've reached my word limit of today! :) BYE.

HURRY UP, SPRING!!!!!!! WE NEED MORE RIDER. Artist: Nicole

CYU.. IN THE FAR FUTURE.

Mystical Journeys of Being Sick

It's good to be back.. :3 Artist: Kashi Takahisa

Having a sick day today. It's one of those days when you wake up and know that if you go to school you're going to regret it and feel like shit by complaining all day. That, or end up vomiting in the school sink and clogging it up. So yes, I made the right decision today. It's also on these kinda days where you find out all the things you missed out on. When you're cooped up at home you don't really know what's going on in the outside world. This probably just applies to me because being sick at home= watching food channel and sleeping. But missing out or not, the world can go on without you, it'll run the same way that it would usually, just without you being in it. We live in a pretty efficient world afterall :).
This brings up a recent story about being sick in school. Please keep in mind that this isn't the first time this has happened ahahaaaaaa.
FLASHBACK TO 2 DAYS AGO.
It was a Tuesday. I was feeling pretty sick most of the day. Then by afternoon-time I got really cold and was wearing my outside jacket. Time-skip to last block. We were doing a math test (that I'm sure I failed :c) when I started feeling really dizzy and hot. At this point I realized that if I didn't get out of class now, I'd end up puking all over the table. SMART CHOICE! I told the teacher that I was going to the office to sign out. I remember that she asked me if I could make it to the office and I said yes... but just how sure was I? :( I started walking down the "GREAT HALL" area and this is when I started hallucinating. This has happened before so I could actually point out the fact that I was hallucinating. And it's not like that LSD trip thing that you're thinking of. You know when you rub your eyes really hard and everything turns light-ish white coloured and gets distorted? That was how I saw everything. Except no matter how hard I rubbed my eyes or closed them it didn't get better.. Well I made it to the office without dying and gave myself a high-five (no, not really). The office lady said that she would call my parents to see if I could get a ride. Things got weird again around here. I was breathing really hard (like a pregnant lady) and then I started hearing "dust" in my head. That is my best description of it. It wasn't like high frequencies or white noise, but it felt like there was some dust moving around in my brain. I questioned myself, "Is this how I'm going to die?" Hahahaha of course :D! I asked the office lady if I could use the bathroom. She replied "Can you make it to the other one?" I SHOOK MY HEAD FURIOUSLY. This is where it gets LEGIT. I walked over to the office bathroom and sat on the toilet. Still felt disoriented and shit and then I instinctively turned to my left. ADJFGIAEJRGAKDFGJajdkfgjaieogkadfjgiaerg. Vomited in the sink. And just when you think it's over, BAM! THE SECOND COMING. Barfing is weird because it's unexpected but your body knows that it's coming. I felt really bad for clogging up the sink so I turned on the tap to make it worse. Don't question a sick person, their brain is already fried up enough. I apologized to the office lady but she said it was ok so everything was good. It was a hard day in my life and I had survived it, I closed my eyes and my soul rested, finally at peace.
/END
Naw, I didn't die :9~! I have to live to tell this story to my grandchildren when they go into highschool. Because everyone needs to collect all their stupid stories to tell everyone in the future. THAT IS LIFE! It is 6:39PM right now and sitting up to use the computer is really tiring so I'm going to lay back down and play DS. Goodnight/evening everyone. I shall see you.. soon?
If anyone (literally one, the one person who reads this blog ;_;) is wondering, I finished the news article and handed it in. Today is supposed to be printing and folding so I can only hope that more than 3 people went out to help. First issue comes out on Monday YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY~

CYU LATER.

Keep Tryin'

Powerlines be mesmerizing. Artist: Jien

Hee..Heh..heh.. First post in a week+. Just working hard in school *cough. No, I'm serious this time :<. Since blogging is an extra curricular thing and I don't really have time to sit down at a computer with a keyboard to tap tap tap AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~~ Slipping back into routine during this time'a year. It's already October and it feels like yesterday was the start of school *looks off into horizon*. No, that's not true, really :c. Projects are piling though. I still don't know what Business 10 is about. Will I ever? :( Math teacher is derping around and I can just read the textbook over again hoping not to fail... When the teacher is inexperienced and new you want to hate them for teaching badly but at the same time you feel bad and try to sympathize because they're trying hard. Gotta hand it to the rookie teacher. She's trying her best.. I guess. Every time I go home really early (everyday) I lie on my bed and play DS. Then I get cold and crawl into bed. Then I get tired. Then I wake up an hour later feeling sad over the wasted hour. Repeat this everyday. I just gotta start on that newspaper article now..
I tried my best today, going to clock out now. Bye everyone.

Cyu.. Tomorrow?

Encounters with the Past

Hi everyone longtime no seeeee. Artist: Cola

Mmm.. You know that feeling when you haven't seen someone in a long time that you used to be close with but don't have anything in common with anymore? I got that feeling today.. Also with blogging right now hahaha. No post in 1 week do you guys miss me? :3 By "you guys" I mean 3 people that I can just talk to in real life and probably talked to during school today. After a few years you just realize that you didn't have much in common with that past good friend. Or did you? Maybe it was the changes that happened in between. In my case, it's where you can hardly recognize them and just stare thinking "..Who.. Is.. This..??" And it gets very awkward. Small talk followed by reminiscing and nostalgia usually comes. Unless you didn't really remember them at all. Then it's one-sided and even more awkward. Then again you can always ask how they're doing at their school now and what happened during the times that you just cut contact with them. I'm glad I don't have to deal with someone asking me why I didn't talk to them or all that stuff. I guess the more you see the bigger world, the more you see how so-and-so wasn't really that interesting or what's-it-so actually had nothing in common with you. It's a big world, eh? :c
In other news I interviewed my PE teacher about the provincial teacher job action. Hoping that I can use it for newspaper article/ actually write because I have never actually contributed to the club aside from attending meetings and being everyone's... "cheerleader"?  My PE teacher was really happy to be interviewed. DAMN I WANT TO BE INTERVIEWED TOO. He said some quotable stuff but too bad I wrote so messy that I won't be able to use the notes I wrote ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha. I should've planned better for questions rather than just stand awkwardly and make the :O face while saying "IZZAT SO? :O". NOW IF YOU EXCUSE ME I HAVE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO.

CYU :<.

Good Ending

Power lines are so CAPTIVATING! Artist: Cola

6:19PM right now. Earliest I've ever started a post since.. My resuming of this bloggery business. Finished the main part of my essay.. Just gotta edit the rest. I finished a bunch of the shows I was watching this weekend. Quite a variety of endings. Do you guys like good endings? I talked about this before, I think. No one actually likes happy endings because they're cliche and predictable, but everyone likes to see the worst horrible shit happen. Maybe a tragic turn of events or the unexpected death will do the readers some good. Though it really varies. Tragic, happy or neutral; a good ending should always tie up all that shit in the story. Just so the readers/viewers don't have to complain to the writer/s about what this or that means. Even if it doesn't tie up all the shit, at least the ending should be open enough for us to paint the rest of the picture the way we like it :).
10:10PM right now. See how time flies? Probably because I typed this in 15 minutes but left it sitting there thinking that I could improve/add to it. Too bad writing essays drains my effort bar ;c. Going to finish editing my essay ololo cyu tmr hopefully.

CYU!

Socks are LIFE

Artist: Jun

I had a dream.. 2 I think? It's interesting because I don't dream a lot, and when I do it's something mundane like that one dream where I was in elementary school but my desk and chair were too big for me and I couldn't look past them to see the board ;_;. I don't have problems with my height but that dream is telling me something...
No, it wasn't that sorta thing though lololo.
In my dream I think I was a bird. I was flying above a car-congested highway and people were trying to climb on to of their cars or run because everything was flooding. Tsunamis too? Was I seeing the end of the world?! Doesn't matter because I was in the sky and I didn't give a shit because it was all good up there :3. Next dream I was living with Daphne or something. Ahahahaha so funny. I was ready to go to school and kept looking at the clock to check if I were late. Then I realized that I was still in my pajamas... But the first thing I went to look for was socks, and all of them were wet. So I was panicking and confused as to what I was going to do next, OMG NO SOCKS. Not sure why I didn't think about wearing sandals or flats or anything that doesn't usually require socks haha. I woke up around there I think.
Upon waking up, the first thing I did was check my desk and I found a pile of DRY SOCKS. THANK GOD THEY WERE DRY.
Moral of my dream:

Socks are important, don't forget them, EVER.

Turtle butt.

Cyu tomorrow I think...

Lazy Wednesday/Thursday

Look at dem colours. Artist: Tsujiki

Maybe I'll blog every other day. Or something like that... I took a nap yesterday. First nap of the school year, hooray! Once you nap you can't GO BACK. Every time I take a nap I wake up feeling confused and horrible and crazy. Like I get up and realize I didn't do my homework or chores and all that stufs. I run around the house shouting in anxiety and pacing until I realize that I still haven't done my homework. This is why I avoid taking naps. At the same time, at the moment before deciding to UNEXPECTEDLY FALL ASLEEP ANYWHERE, you're too tired to giv'a'shit.


^9/21/11^
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I wrote that yesterday and I'm continuing right after taking a nap. Friday naps are a ritual. Though in this case it's a Thurs because we don't have school tomorrow HOOOOORAYYYYY! 
Going back to sleep now, bye.

Cyu...

Sometime soon.

Lazy Monday

Hi guys what's up. Artist: aoHA

When everyone else is doing it, you feel compelled to do it. Even if you know it's wrong or against your morals, you lose motivation to do something when everyone else is doing the opposite. I feel kinda like that with blogging. I'm too lazy to commit to daily blogging everyday and it's a sort of thing like you daily blog, I read; I daily blog, you read. DAPHNE ARE YOU READING THIS? ;_; ELSON?! /SAD /DISTRESSED. This is my excuse for not  not a good excuse for not posting yesterday. Also that I didn't want to stay up to write (U HAPPY NICON MOM..?)and blogging is something that sits in the back of my mind until I go into bed and realize I've forgotten something (I get this everyday almost.. For anything really). It's the.. What, 3rd week in school? I got projects :( Don't have much to say for tomorrow but I'll have to go around for a my business class to research stuffs. Maybe I'll bring a camera and take pictures of interesting things I see... And upload them if I have time. Or energy, or any of those. The effort to do so out weighs them all along with my memory so I will probably forget to take pictures. Nothing else to say today :<.
Hey, how long after best before date does everyone think it's acceptable to eat the product?
That is my homework for everyone today. Alright.

OVER AND OUT.

Lazy Saturday, First World Problems, Relationstuffs

Stars'nstuff. Artist: Cola

Sometimes I feel like my posts should be named either "Lazy ___day" or "First World Problems". Or both, or maybe even my whole blog title. Because when I write, I'm either complaining about school work, talking about how lazily eventful my day was or going on about how lazy and unmotivated I am. I'd like to deny all these things but they are true so I won't.
Has anyone ever had experience with dumping friends? I've heard that dumping friends is a lot harder than dumping a regular boyfriend or girlfriend. Probably because in a friendship you expect more or less. Equal? Friendship is the same, just without the romance bit.. Right? I guess. Depends on what kind of friendship. But what about in the case where you see them everyday? Call them, support their problems and their other relationships, hm... This applies to both right? Wait, what makes it harder then? Sometimes friendship feels like something that lasts longer, but at the same time a lot of relationships have their time limits and restraints. That's bad, isn't it. I've been thinking about this for the past day or so and it's probably the action of dumping that is the hardest. People all know that breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend can just be put in the words, but can dumping friends be just said like that?... I asked my brother and he said that he just doesn't talk to the person for a long period of time. That seems like a good idea until you realize that they still consider you as a friend. Then you're fucked, hahahaha. There is probably a simple solution for this but dumping people bluntly is something I would have a hard time doing. Unless I just couldn't stand it. Though I don't have experience with dating or friendship, let alone relationships with any type of human in general so scratch all that out above. ;_;.

Never mind this real-world business haha. New anime season coming up, I haven't even watched last weeks shows yet due to my "BUSY LIFE" *HACK*COUGH*HACOUGH*. Saw some trailers, not sure if anything has piqued my interest. I picked up a bunch of shows during summer without thinking that by the time I was back in school it'd be hard to keep watching. 2 episodes, pfff--no big deal... I think.
Going to sleep sit idle-ly around for the next hour before I realize that I should sleep.

GOOOOODN--CYU TOMORROW.

Autumn is Cool, But Don't Play in Leaves

It's autumn, everyone put your sandals away!! Artist: Jun

Aww yeah shaking hands, bumping fists, hi-fiving 'n all that jazz with Autumn right now. The leaves should be crispy underfoot around this time. September is just before it gets dark really early and I bolt out of school once the bell rings. Shit, it is SCARY going home around 4-5 because the sun is already down. Reminds me of this time I was being stupid and forgot my umbrella so I went to my friend's house from 3-5, forgetting that I would have to bus and walk home in the rain anyways with the thought that a murderous stranger could be following me the entire way. Shut up, you're this paranoid too >_>. 
What? You really want to hear about my school day, today, this day? Ok. Schedule revamping. Nothing changed. I have decided to swallow my fate and bear with it. If I can't get my language class, so be it. If I have to take guitar, SO DAMN BE IT FFFFFFF... I'll be getting a new math teacher, that's sad :(. Mr. Chan laughed my joke today and I felt like I accomplished something. I wrote it myself, so it's probably really good.

What did the Jewish clam say?

...WAIT FOR IT...

DID YOU GUESS YET?...

OK.

MUSSELTOV.

D'OWWWWWWWWWWWHAWHAWHAW, SO FUNNY ^O^~ I don't think it's that bad :<. I napped for what seemed like 5 hours today but was just in time for dinner. MAGIC! Today I went to Daphne's house before realizing that I had a juice box in my lunch bag which I left at school ;(. Then I went back to school to realize that THERE WAS NO JUICE BOX IN MY LUNCH BAG. Then I played monopoly and went to jail twice and had to pay off money where ever I stopped. Daphne playing Trauma Center is traumatic because if Daphne cuts me open I'm better off dead :(. <UNRELATED>
I gotta write an essay and do math homework this weekend so bye, Y'ALL.

CYU.

Lazy EVERYDAY

Rainy day and stuff

Where do I start... First of all, sorry for not blogging 2 days in a row now NO ONE GIVES A SHIT :c. Though no one else is daily blogging anymore (not like they ever did ;_;). It's all fair though because in those two days I haven't gone on the computer. Taking a computer break is nice because the emails accumulate and I feel special.. :3 If I wrote more frequently I would remember the funny/stupid stories and stuff that happens in school but for now all I can say is that...... Why I did not blog:
My English teacher wanted us to write a literary essay as a response to this short story.. Did you know that when I don't go to Daphne's house after school I come home 2 hours early and my productivity level goes to 200%? But it's a lonely ride home :(.
Essay is fine and reasonable, but she also wants us to do a skit. I don't get it. It's just one short story. I don't take this very seriously haaaaha~
I'm lazy. I'm very lazy. Lazy and tired. Everyday I wake up kinda tired and trudge through the day collecting fragments of tiredness off the ground until I doze off in last block. Then take a nap if I'm not going to Daphne's house. Sleeping on the bus is so uncomfortable (especially when you're standing) but it's only possible after school.
Along with a variety of assortments etcetc. You'd think that after a long hard day, sleeping at night would be easier, but HELL NO. SCUMBAG BRAIN WANTS TO STAY UP ALL NIGHT. WHY!?!!!
Tomorrow's Friday so I'm hoping to write something insightful and interesting
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha we all know it won't happen :(

Mooncake hangover, there will be mooncake for the rest of this week probably..

Cyu tomorrow.. Probably :9.

Lazy Sunday

Have you ever seen these kinda fields in person? Artist: Yonasawa

Typical lazy Sunday. I have $10.06 worth of overdue book fees and I can't renew my book anymore hahahahaha... Good lord I gotta get to the library tomorrow. TODAY (Nicon, you happy now? ;_;) will be my first guitar class. Let's hope I see someone I know..? Good luck to me, yehhhhhhhh. Nothing left to say for today.

Cyu.

Mid-Autumn Blues

It's not even spring here~~ Artist: Yonasawa

I feel bad for important days that overlap. Like that one year where Valentines' day and Chinese New Year overlapped and one of them was forgotten (the latter probs). This time it's 911 tomorrow and mid-autumn festival on the following day. My condolences to those related to the incident. It'll be one of those things that no one will forget (or forgive) and changed the face of world security and thoughts on terrorism. Let's look on the brighter side now.. :)?

Mid-autumn festival has to be the best part of Fall. Going back to school is interesting and fun but nothing is done for the first month or so, so it's actually a boring month of the year. In school related news: I couldn't make it into my Japanese class because it conflicted with math; which conflicted with English and socials. Why is my luck so bad this year ;c? I bet next year I'll get a call from the counselor saying that my English conflicts with my socials, math and science and that it'll be impossible to get into a required course. Ahahahaha.. :(. I had a choice between Foods level 2 or Guitar Beginner/Advanced. I chose guitar because I'm already in jazz and since it's a music course so it'll be easy/slack off/catch up other work class. Despite my ungratefulness with this stuff, the counselor called me at 5PM on a weekend. Last time at 10AM on a Sunday. Shit, that lady is hard working. I hope she gets paid double for having to deal with kids like me lol XD.
Ate lotsa moon cake today. I remember being too sick to eat moon cake last year and that it was depressing because moon cake is legit the best food IN THIS WORLD.

Traditional or non-traditional, it's still moon cake and it's still GOOD.

CYU TOM.

A Young Person's Worries

More Amemura. Background is too! Artist : Amemura

We are afraid of the future. We are afraid of the outcomes that we can barely foresee. So we choose to live day-by-day, focusing on what can be seen and done, the present. For me, future is a big deal, and maybe the most confusing part of me. Should I follow those childhood dreams that have always lingered back there or do what everyone wants? Whenever I think about my future I come to the conclusion that I'm young and have lots of time to think. But just how much more time do I have..? Feeling overly worried since I'm half through high school. This is nothing in life but a big deal for someone like me :(. Especially when you have those people who have careers that they've already decided and thought out. Where do you guys get the time to do that?? Pressure is tough in school too eh. When you're in an environment with so many people you run out of space to develop yourself and end up mashing into others. Now commencing self pity non-rant :(.
I thought of this after taking business.. Maybe I'm taking this to seriously, but I never thought twice about people joining a class like that with the intention of seeing it as a career eye-opener. I guess that's just how you feel in school since you take so many courses just because they seem fun or your friends are doing it. *COUGH* Anyways, there's nothing wrong with taking fun courses and doing that kinda stuff right now because future and adulthood aren't about fun :(. No fun and games, just work and stuff. When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I wouldn't say much, shrug it off and say that I'll think about it later. But whenever I do think about it, my conclusion has always been that as long as it's a job that I enjoy, it'll be a worthwhile one. Dear future-self, please have a career that you enjoy ;_;.
Enough for today, I've gotten so boring that I just go to my friends house to sleep and play with glasses :<. Too much napping today so I won't be able to sleep. DAMN THISSSSSSS......

Rele..vant?  Artist: Monoyuu

Cyu laters.

I Almost Forgot How To Play Saxophone

I miss the rain sometimes ._. Artist: Botan

"All students with missing blocks sit in the lounge and do nothing." 
School's orders. I shall obey. I spent 2nd block sitting there accidentally eavesdropping on the girl sitting 1 foot away (seriously you could've sat anywhere else, why next to me :c) with friends who would come every 10 minutes to gossip while I played DS.
In other news tried to play saxophone today and I forgot how to assemble it.. Is it mouth piece or neck first? Mouth + neck? I don't remember :(. Can hardly play. The effects of 2 months is crippling ;_;. Reminds me of when I first joined last year and by Friday I was so sad that I felt like giving up :(. BUT I DIDN'T! AND I'M HERE NOW. YEEEAHHHHHHHHHHH!
More business 10 tomorrow so let's hope I learn what the course is :p. Less than 12 hours of sleep this week so far ahahahahahaha gotta sleep. GOTTA SLEEP.

Cyu tomorrow.

What is Business 10?!?

Interesting symbolism..? Artist: Carv

Huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................. I'm going to do the most boring thing in the world right now so if you don't want to read any further don't read. DON'T READ.
Here's some BGM to keep you entertained:


First real day of school so I'm going to talk about my courses and complain ヽ(´ー `)ﾉ~
English was nice. Our teacher has a spiffy British accent and we got into the actual class.. Which I enjoy better than the class intro game things actually ._. We have homework on first day. That's also.. Nice :c.
I'm worried for my jazz band class. Very worried. We have 28+ people which means at least 10 new students but there are 6 pianists and 4 guitars. How does that work out?!? I suspect most of next class will be spent teaching basics to the beginners and we won't get to real stuff. Good thing I have my NEWSPAPER CROSSWORD, YEAH!
Business was funny. Funny because the first half included awkward new teacher trying to explain that she doesn't know what this class will be doing and roundabout explaining that we'll just be sitting around for the week. Then also funny because we had to answer questions:
Q. Why did you join this course?
It sounded serious and important so I joined.
Q. What do you look forward to learning in this course?
I don't know what this class is about, I want to learn business stuff?
Q. What is your dream business opportunity?
I don't know what I'm doing after school so I don't know.

I think I'm going to drop this course. Drop this course and get Japanese 10. Then move math and move more shit to make room for some shit and shit yeah, shit. Shit :(.
1-4 class is always math so I had math.
Math in short:
Mr. Chan: Ok guys, Blackberry or iPhone? Move to left or right to choose.
Me: Mr.Chan, I don't have a phone, I don't know what that is.
Mr. Chan: Lady Gaga: Love, or hate her?
Me: Mr. Chan, I don't know who Lady Gaga is. 
Mr. Chan: Favourite genre of music.
Me: Progressive metal ;_;.
Expectations have dropped from C+ to F. ORZ. I'm sorry guys, I don't know what phone is. What else can I say to my honest.. Classma.. :( I can't. They know.
To sum up today: Every teacher thinks that no one knows what 2 truths 1 lie is and they continue to make fun of us by secretly getting all teachers for all blocks to play it with their class.
I'M SICK OF MAKING TRUTHS AND LIES. NO ONE BELIEVES THAT I SLEEP AT 8AM BUT DISLIKING HORSES IS A LIE!? Guys, have you seen horses? Damn those things are scary. Maybe we should just eat them. Probably very high in protein.

Ta-ta-ta-ta-tata-ta-ta-ta... Artist: Arsenixc

My schedule will get a big beating tomorrow.

Wish me luck, I just want to get into Japanese ;_;

Cyu.

Dangerously Close

Um.. Space.. Stuff :<. Artist: Tsujiki

Just what word was I looking for then? Her footsteps followed behind me. About two feet from mine. To think fate would be glaring at my back that day. His stare was the piercing kind, "I'm being kind enough to you, why can't you move forward?" I don't know either. Why couldn't the words escape my mouth that day? Fate was burning a hole into my back. We were two strangers walking steps away from each other. But why did it feel so right? Two breaths, two heartbeats; two strangers. We were far apart yet walking the same line. Ah, synchronization was the word.

2 DAYS UNTIL SCHOOL

Noooooooo STORY FOR TODAY I wrote it. I don't know if this is good, but I never know if my story-bits are good and even if I do, I'll doubt it (so someone can compliment it again and I can deny it). This is a story I heard from my friend Alex, is this story too personal? This is his true story though I probably interpreted it differently, I enjoyed writing it. Girl walking behind guy, guy thinks it FEELS SO RIGHT (please don't hate me for writing this *COUGH*). Two breaths walking hahahaha I was only reminded of that when I finished the last sentences. 2 is such a tiny number, eh? 2 days means 48 hours. So in 48 hours+ I will be going to school at... 1PM. Is that early? It's very early. I remember waking up at 10 last year and getting ready to go to school at 12 when I realized that it was supposed to be at 1. And then I had nothing to do for 2 hours.

Tomorrow is Sunday which makes no difference from any other day. Yes...No? I'll do the rest later~~

I drew an alpaca. Looks like a lamb. My drawings are realistic so you know it's an alpaca.

CYU TOMORROW!

Non-rant: Bits and Pieces

Sunset beach setting. So lovely :) Artist: Amemura

4 DAYS UNTIL SCHOOL

We've come to that point in summer where it is nothing but memories and reminiscence. What we lived through all of these past summers will just to disappear into the waves of time, like footprints in sand. Oh, youth, summer.
*clapclapclapclap*

Cheesiness doesn't come out of me right. It feels forced or maybe because I'm not the kind of person who would write monologues for fun ._. . "What's the point of living in the moment," is what I'd like to ask right now. So I googled it and came to Oprah's page.
I don't get the meaning of this from what I originally perceived: being significantly spontaneous about everything.
Reading this kind of stuff makes me feel like life is all bullshit and all these things are made up so we can feel better about ourselves. And that's probably exactly it :(. If living in the moment just means being more attentive and virtuous you might as well become Buddhist. Ahahahahaha. 

Whenever I try to rant it turns into pessimistic self-pity talk. That's why I call it non-rant (tags). Rant's are full of rage, complaints, and world-hate. Non-rants are for wimps like me who get angry at everything first and then end up blaming it on themselves. I can't stay angry too long because I end up feeling bad and blaming it on myself.

Sometimes I see people who are so talented that their existence seems impossible and it's like, "What the fuck dude, didn't anyone tell you to share?!?" But then you realize that all people have their own talents and if we were all that multi-talented we would still feel bad because so-and-so who is equally as talented as you makes $20 million a year and you're stuck at home uploading videos on youtube. Youtube isn't bad at all though!

I do believe everyone is talented (some just more deep-seeded). Some people's personality gets in the way of what they like or what they are good at though. Self-pity is probably as bad as jealousy. It's like you're pitying yourself because you can't be as good at this or that (ETC.) but you aren't doing shit about it besides whining and thinking you have it the worst in the world. In comparison, jealously is maybe better because aside from being infuriatingly angry/envious and cursing the person for what you wish you could have, you could also be working your way towards that goal.

This said, I want to say that the West teaches to be proud and the East teaches modesty. People say that being proud and aggressive is good but being modest is good too. But if you think about it, they are polar opposites and shouldn't really work together in harmony. This is why Asians don't like Bruce Lee's personality.
I wrote this all while listening to a sad romance-piano song. This DID NOT FUEL my non-rant for today.

This song is stuck in my head and the duet is nicely blended with lots of emotion :).The female's voice (Guriri- グリリ) is so nice here~~
CYU.

Subconscious Crater

Nature stuff yup. Artist: Koyori

We are always trying to fill this empty space in ourselves. And we ask ourselves "when did that shallow dent turn into a gaping hole?" I think things don't exist until we pay attention to them. That person you like didn't exist before you started noticing them. Sadness and anger didn't exist either, until you paid attention to them. In that sense, if you don't think about something long enough, it disappears! No, I'm not saying that locking yourself up will make you forget about the universe and all its sorrows (though others will forget you ); ), but it's interesting how this works. That empty space that you've been trying to fill-in all of your life could have always felt like it was there since the beginning.. Or it could just be a temporary once in a while thing. You could be filling in the hole without knowing it, or trying to stuff whatever fits into it.
When you're absorbed in something you can't think about problems like that (and the hole disappears!). I wonder if that's how workaholics feel. Work yourself until you forget about your troubles, debt, depression, desires. This is getting kinda gloomy, eh? :( Just wanted to take some time off counting down school days. Pondering is easier done than story-telling too.
Here's some ED shuffle music:

Avishai Cohen- Calm
Good stuff. Serious music for serious post. The album Continuo (which the song is from) is his best album in my opinion :).

This is too cute for me to ignore ;_;. Artist: Kodama

See you tomorrow~