Non-rant: Bits and Pieces

Sunset beach setting. So lovely :) Artist: Amemura

4 DAYS UNTIL SCHOOL

We've come to that point in summer where it is nothing but memories and reminiscence. What we lived through all of these past summers will just to disappear into the waves of time, like footprints in sand. Oh, youth, summer.
*clapclapclapclap*

Cheesiness doesn't come out of me right. It feels forced or maybe because I'm not the kind of person who would write monologues for fun ._. . "What's the point of living in the moment," is what I'd like to ask right now. So I googled it and came to Oprah's page.
I don't get the meaning of this from what I originally perceived: being significantly spontaneous about everything.
Reading this kind of stuff makes me feel like life is all bullshit and all these things are made up so we can feel better about ourselves. And that's probably exactly it :(. If living in the moment just means being more attentive and virtuous you might as well become Buddhist. Ahahahahaha. 

Whenever I try to rant it turns into pessimistic self-pity talk. That's why I call it non-rant (tags). Rant's are full of rage, complaints, and world-hate. Non-rants are for wimps like me who get angry at everything first and then end up blaming it on themselves. I can't stay angry too long because I end up feeling bad and blaming it on myself.

Sometimes I see people who are so talented that their existence seems impossible and it's like, "What the fuck dude, didn't anyone tell you to share?!?" But then you realize that all people have their own talents and if we were all that multi-talented we would still feel bad because so-and-so who is equally as talented as you makes $20 million a year and you're stuck at home uploading videos on youtube. Youtube isn't bad at all though!

I do believe everyone is talented (some just more deep-seeded). Some people's personality gets in the way of what they like or what they are good at though. Self-pity is probably as bad as jealousy. It's like you're pitying yourself because you can't be as good at this or that (ETC.) but you aren't doing shit about it besides whining and thinking you have it the worst in the world. In comparison, jealously is maybe better because aside from being infuriatingly angry/envious and cursing the person for what you wish you could have, you could also be working your way towards that goal.

This said, I want to say that the West teaches to be proud and the East teaches modesty. People say that being proud and aggressive is good but being modest is good too. But if you think about it, they are polar opposites and shouldn't really work together in harmony. This is why Asians don't like Bruce Lee's personality.
I wrote this all while listening to a sad romance-piano song. This DID NOT FUEL my non-rant for today.

This song is stuck in my head and the duet is nicely blended with lots of emotion :).The female's voice (Guriri- グリリ) is so nice here~~
CYU.